Late post tonight. I woke up this morning in scattered fashion. Late to rise (3 hours sleep again), I put shaving gel instead of mousse in my hair, I had to move a car for street sweeping that did not start, my mother-in-law leaving back home after a visit, my wife sick and I had to get my kids to school, in CA wet traffic and my group. I do realize that many people have this stuff happen to them daily or 10x worse that I do. I just wanted to share my story as I go through getting help for mental health. To inspire someone else to get help. So I apologize if it sounds ridiculous to you but well, it's my life and I am trying to take control of it myself. I do have support at home as I know some have zero. That is my point. I want to be supportive and help someone get the help they need.
Anyway, as I ramble my thoughts now my thumb typing it out, my day started shit. Happens. I say screw the car, kiss grandma and help put her suitcases in Lyft, get wifey what she needs and grab the kid to go. Again, I understand some will say " boo hoo", again my life. Get my kido to school get to group very agitated, anxious, nervous. I come in, sit down and wait for it to start. I can't sit still so I walk out. I tell myself you need this help. You left yesterday. You know what and how you will feel later. I go back in.
We start with meditation. Something I have tried and quit a couple times. I gave ite a good, honest try for the 10 minute session. I felt calmer, not how I felt directly before. Now I can sit through an anxiety class. I was very happy I stayed. Realizing others had similar experiences, lives, relationships, work issues, i felt even calmer. I got some great information I actually already feel works. That's all that really matters, what works for YOU. I went home after another meditation. Another? Never thought to do that. Well, now I will make room for it. I felt controlled by myself. Odd thing to say. I means I didn't feel for that 10 minutes that I was consumed by everything. My racing over analytical thoughts mostly, but the control. I am in control. Again, an odd thing to say.
Part 2. #sensitive#mindfulness#mentalhealth#love#selflove#selfrespect
Perfect definition for self care...
Whilst the contract I was in was terminated this week, I had already decided to leave and had written out my letter ending the contract myself.
Working in an environment, purely for money, with so much going on around me that challenged my values, my morals, my self worth and every moment of every day, was damaging my peace of mind, was impacting negatively upon my health, that was not an environment I could continue on in. ✨
The relief my body has felt since it happened, the freedom I feel, sleeping like a baby, migraine free; there is no price on that type of self care!! #selfcare#values#morals#peaceofmind#freedom#rest#selfrespect#selfworth#walkaway#trusttheprocess#truth#love#hope#selflove#bodywisdom
Pic courtesy @missfoxmelb
Bila rasa gembira, rasa semangat sangat-sangat untuk meneruskan hidup dan perbaiki diri. .
Bila dalam kesedihan, tercari-cari dan tergapai-gapai meminta pertolongan Allah bagi magic bantuan. Tetapi, sebenarnya kesedihan itulah bantuan Allah kepada diri kita untuk kembali kepadaNya yang merindui rintihan kita dan hikmah pastinya akan menyusul. .
It’s just life. Live life in dunya for dunya & Akhirat. It’s better that way rather than living in dunya for only dunya.
Candid credit to @rajaiskandar.ri taken at the new beautiful mosque in Glenmarie yesterday just before Maghrib. .
ABOUT RULES 🥀🙏 Alone we are nothing either we like it or not we are all one and deeply connected with each other via energy and conscious. When I make decisions there are set of rules I follow. Those rules help me to stay clear to my soul. One of them is how to set your mind and heart in situations where other people involved. If you follow this rule it can save you. You should ask your self the following when making decisions: 1🥀 Is this good for me? 2🥀 Is it good for others? 3🥀Is it good for my vision, my goal? If you answer at least once NO then you have to rethink your choices and create different actions that benefit all and that is how we grow together with respect and consideration. When you do things where you respect not only what is good for you but for other people then your destiny will change. #respect#loveoneanother#behonest#betruth#beu#belight#bebright#rules#boundaries#selfrespect#nature#meditation#principles#lifestudy #медитация
This, from @iamhertribe couldn’t be more true of the events of this week, and these past 15 months in reality.
Whilst I won’t go in a lot of detail, I was terminated from a contract this week because I dared to have a voice against someone that would be best classified as part of “the boys club”, where women and their viewpoints are not respected; and to dare defend women against someone who believes they are in power, well, let’s say, I am where I am now.
Whilst it is easy for me to say, “karma is a b*tch”, and it is, it isn’t my responsibility to stand by and try to support that person and the lessons they are here to learn.
That will not stop me having a voice in the future and standing up for what is right. I have values, I have morals and with those, I can sleep well at night.
I also firmly believe, that as one door closes, another opens to more amazing beautiful life changing experiences with new people and new places. 💕
The relationship we have with PORN...
Often a messed up one falling into a couple of broad categories:
1. Dependant on it and often feel shame and guilt for using it
2. Use it heavily with no regard for the impact it could be having on us, or what it could be replacing in your relationships and sex lives. .
It pays to get curious as to the WHY.
👉🏼Take the quiz at the link in my bio: DO YOU WATCH TOO MUCH PORN?🔥
I am a feminist, and what that means to me is much the same as the meaning of the fact that I am Black: it means that I must undertake to love myself and to respect myself as though my very life depends upon self-love and self-respect. – J. Jordan
Something no #woman should ever #do or feel that #she has to do in order to reach #success in an area of life. Whether it be #friendship a #relationship or in #business it should never come to unscrewing another woman's #light bulb in order to #shine The only person you should be feeling the need or #desire to #compete with is the #reflection staring back at #you when you look into the mirror at yourself. If or when any of us are put into any position where we feel we need to compete against someone to #earn something or be with a person or persons, that is our own lightbulb #turned#on telling us to get out. Afterall...when theres really no reason to stay, it is a #good #time to #go. #dignity#morals & #values aren't conservative or selfish, they are part of #selfrespect and nobody nor any amount of #money can give ya that. You are not a competitor in some #game. You Are a human being & deserve your best honest and true life story possible! #integrity & #Humility get you less followers and friends but it'll attract more of who comes into your life and stays! #shineon and be #confident in your #truth!
Ohh when I was younger and naive the opinions of others meant more to me than the money I had in my pocket. Recently found out some people had been talking bad about me and my response is simple... There isn’t one 😂👍🏼🤷🏼♂️I’ve recently just come to the conclusion at 26 I really don’t give a fuck unless you are planning on paying my bills or putting food in my mouth. Remember if they are trying to bring you down, you might just be above them💯#thatsthat#selflove#selfrespect