I have always been a planner. An organizer. A need-to-know-every-detail kind of girl. A prepare and prepare until there’s no WAY you can feel unprepared - kind of girl. Research and weigh options and pros and cons and should I or shouldn’t I and make very educated decisions - kind of girl. A control freak, terrified of the unknown, don’t spring things on me last minute, spontaneous is notttt in my vocabulary - kind of girl...
And somehow, that same girl bought last minute standby tickets to fly down to San Diego tonight to go watch regionals this weekend... 😳😱 Who even am I?? Yes, maybe it has caused some moments of panic and WTF am I thinking, this is crazyyyyy... but I’m trying to think of it as a fun adventure 😅 I’m definitely stepping outside of my comfort zone on this one - and thinking (hoping) it might end up being worth it :)
Here goes nothing! I’m comin’ for ya SD!
Happy Memorial Day weekend, my friends!
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I am in a very in-betweenish place that feels at times like the silent electricity before a thunderstorm but most of the time it feels like I’m going out of my mind. At the worst of it I am unable to find any hope to cling to, and that has concerned me more over time. I am a person who loves so many things and for whom commitment to anything from my outfit for the day to my education is agonizing. I see all the possibilities and I see the finiteness of time and I still feel as though I’m barely getting acquainted with myself and so there is fear that every choice made or not made is the wrong one. But, there is a point when it goes beyond usual stress and I have to remember I am actually suffering more than necessary because of my internal wiring. So after one too many scary episodes of despair I am going to see someone to help me tomorrow to see if there may be some medicine to help my OCD and the resulting anxiety and depression I live with daily. I’ve lived this way for so long it’s likely I don’t even realize how bad it is, and I feel as though I realize it’s bad. I am a mix of terrified and hopeful and skeptical and relieved to be having something to go on even if it’s just talking and a first step toward finding help. I have a lot of trouble asking for help and even more trouble accepting it when it’s offered. I also have a history of traumatic experiences with medication. It feels both like perfect and the worst timing. I guess it will depend how it all goes. Maybe I won’t have to fight so hard with myself to get through each day. I don’t think I can even imagine what that’s like. #heregoesnothing
#heregoesnothing • 😶After not running since this past Saturday at @terrainracing giving my foot a rest and doing some cross training and anything to try to get it healed (still from my sport climbing fall injury) and best as possible for this Sunday 50 miler; today I went for a trial test run, 5 miles on the trails. It felt alright 🤷🏻♂️ just alright , not the great conditions I was hoping to be running with for my first 50miler but I’ll take it as just another obstacle. My soul and mind still strong and excited so hopefully that will be enough to pull through it! Doesn’t matter how well you prepare and think you’re prepared for something , life always throw that curve ball at you, and you just have to suck it up and deal with it! There are certain angles that when my right foot would hit it would def make my mind say “YIKES” so I’ll have to be extra careful making sure I get some right stepping Sunday, luckily is not supposed to be a technical terrain so that a plus 🤞🏼 #roadto50miles#shortshorts#teamocrbeast#pinelandfarmstrailchallenge
6 months ago I semi researched the Keto diet...I tried it for a week, came down with a virus and kicked the Keto diet to the curb. So after much more planning, a friend to keep me accountable, and an instagramer (@ketoincourt)to give me so many great ideas I’m all in!
So I recently changed up my usual routine a bit. The warm weather has brought back all the running feels 🏃🏽♀️. Which has also motivated me to want to start training for a half marathon. Time to start getting more miles in and cutting back on lifting a bit. My plan is to run 5-6 days a week, while incorporating 3-4 lift days. I’m going to slowly start increasing my miles each week, and then eventually incorporate some workouts when I feel my endurance is back to being able handle some hard days😬
Here is my back/bi workout from yesterday!
1️⃣ bent over row 4x10
2️⃣ hammer curls 4x20 total
3️⃣ cable rope curls 4x10
4️⃣ lat pull downs 4x10
5️⃣ standing lat pushdowns 4x10
6️⃣ EZ bar curls 4x10
7️⃣ seated row 4x10
Years ago I made a very difficult decision to leave a company where I considered my coworkers family. It’s been an easy road to say the least. Up rooting myself from a little country town to a big little city. All along the way achieving my personal goals as well. I don’t my think I have ever felt so accomplished!! Beyond excited for the next step in my life. Scared and nervous...but the only way is up! #igotthepower#mindoverall#fakeittilyoumakeit#heregoesnothing
So many things on my dreaded “list of things to do” but this broken Teddy has been on Maddy’s “list of things for Mom to do” for days. Sigh. Might as well add Teddy Surgeon to my list of qualifications. #heregoesnothing#shouldhavetakenhomeec